you know what? I don't care anymore. Live your life the way you see fit. i'm living mine. you want to be friends then act like it and be an adult, not like some little kid on the playground. grow up and deal, i am. i've made mistakes, you've made mistakes it's called life. we learn from it and apply it and move on. There is no need for drama unless you want that. i had my blow out and i'm done. feel better now and soon i'll be gone. what then? actually don't care. i've put my faith where it needs to be. I trust and hope you will do the same. all will be ok if you let it. i try to tell you things i see from a friend looking outside looking in. take it any way you wish. don't want to fight or argue but we will. both of us stubborn that way. we will make it through this and be good friends. Time and smiles and talk, good talk will make it work. i tried to make you happy and give you what you want but it's never good enough is it? you complain about me. all or nothing, well aren't you doing the same? wanting it all or nothing. i know it's been a roller coaster ride for you too. it will all be ok. I AM OUT OF YOUR LIFE, DONE. i get it. now lets work on being friends. that is all i ever wanted. I am soooo happy for the both of you. you don't seem to get that. I finally get to see you happy. I know then i turn around and make it crap. well you do, because you make a big deal out of nothing. told exactly what happened and was trying to show my happiness. could you accept that? no, you had to get all mad and think something else was going and read into it what wasn't there. no motive, no agenda. wasn't going to say nothing but thought hey i'll show my happiness. that was all. hope you get married and have babies and all the happy wonderful stuff. wish you the best, really. I've gotten to my place where i am comfortable with it. I got a little freaked at the thought of being on my own. then they were sent to me, the people in my life to help on my path. that would be you Lourin and ken too. Irene and russell. colin helped also and i'm sure there will be others. your looking at the little picture. step back and look at the bigger picture. maybe you will see it. i sure hope so for everybody's sake. i just want what is best for all of us. i want to be friends. i would like all of us the get along and be able to spend time together. that is all. i wish to move onto the next phase of my life and know all of us are good and happy. i have changed and will keep changing. said some things i wish i hadn't but anger and frustration get in the way and i'm sorry. all will be good soon just hope you can find it in you to forgive. i know i have.
huggles, Randy
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