monday 2 april

ok it's been busy. job searching and finding a place to stay. found a place it's a roommate kinda thing and works for now. when i get working and see how much i'm making then i can go from there to see what i can afford. the job thing is different. but applied to a couple of jobs through a service called snagajob. they are like monster or CareerBuilder but are local. have an interview with them on wednesday so they can better place me. i am hopeful and optimistic. things are finally moving along. i still have my issues but i'm working through them and learning nothing good comes from the feelings and things i dwell on. finally letting go and moving on. have to or i'll be stuck here in my own wallowing forever. yes somethings bother me but it's me realizing the things i never did and should have. learning from this and will apply it to next relationship. this is all new and i've learned to look at it from a different angle. instead of hate and such, i'm looking at it to learn to apply in the future and make me a better person. she might hate me and the next girl i'm with but i was doing that with her. she will get over it and move on like me. we are good friends now and talk when we can. she is still important in my life. just hopeful he can understand that and learn to live with the fact we are friends and always will be. well back at the job searching need to fill out as many as i can. till later friends, huggles, Randy