friday march 9th

Well what can i say. why do i keep trying to please her, we left each other and she found someone new who makes her happy. does she want to keep me miserable? I added a friend on facebook she does not like. i did it to get insight into my past. now she is so upset over it she wants to unfriend me. but it's ok for her to have the friends i don't like. i never said anything, she's a grown woman and can make her own decisions. always her way i guess. it has me sad now that she even cares. i know she cares for me but we are done aren't we? so why can't i be friends with who i want. how did you find out i put her back on? and why does it matter to you? i guess i have alot more to learn because i don't get it. i'm trying to fix me and be a better person. i don't know anymore, confusion abounds. i care for her deeply still and will do what she asks. i've hurt her to many times to do that anymore. i guess i see her point now. i pray for guidance and help. it comes in strange manners but i see the signs. so with this i do what needs to done and asked of me. well i'll stop here my thoughts all jumbled need to think. till later, huggles, Randy