ok changes are happening and i'm scared. scared to move on.
got my first phase of my web project done. learning new software is a pain. going to redo the whole thing and it will rock.(i hope)
missing my kids terribly and want to see them.
my plate is full right now. wow who would have thought a couple months ago i'd be here, doing what i'm doing.
all is good in my world. hurting still but have just about cut all ties with the ex. we will see what happens. hoping we can still be friends but the outlook isn't good. i still pray and hope for the best but expect the worst. i need to heal and find myself. this is so hard, thought i'd be with her forever. she was supposed to be my last. just need to get this out. need to vent. have no friends to talk to about this or care to listen. such is my life, forever alone i guess. my own doing. my burden, my cross to bear. so be it. test me lord, i will not fail. my faith is strong. my path set before and i fear but know you walk with me. so bring it big guy what else you have? i can take it, so bring it.
tomorrow is my mom's birthday. she passed in february. i miss her but know she is in a better place. Love you with all that i am. so with that i say huggles.
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